Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Its been a little while....

...since Ive written anything. Not so much for lack of things to say, but rather, lack of wanting to say it.

Last Thursday I sat down at my (well, Rick's) laptop, prepared to write about how that day marked exactly six months since his passing. I held my fingers over the keys, and nothing came. I couldnt do it. It just wasnt the thing to do, wasnt the time. It doesnt mean the event wasnt very much on my mind.

At our wedding, Rick chose a reading from a John Cage lecture, which has become more and more important to me over time. I chose a few lines from it to have printed on his 'prayer card' at his funeral. I want to share part of it with you, dear readers, because theyre the only words I have right now:

But now there are silences and the words make help make
the silences. I have nothing to say and I am saying it and that is poetry
as I need it. This space of time is organized. We need not fear
these silences we may love them.


  1. Indeed. Here's to knowing when the silence is saying it all.


  2. oh my, so i know i read this at your wedding, but I feel like I'm reading it for the 1st time..I am ashamed to admit that I do fear these silences. I am sorry. I will try not to fear them in the future.